Leg day had me all sorts of sore yesterday and the kids are more than willing to provide some extra pressure when I foam roll. I tried to get Madison to recreate the 'gentle but firm' pressure I got in my yoga class, but she will press down for about 7 seconds then try to climb on me demanding I massage her legs too. Can we just focus on my pain?? Oliver decides to let me in on his long held secret, he is an AMAZING hamstring stretcher!!! We have been together for a million years and I never knew it, rude.
She was videoing us, thank God it didn't save and she didn't post it somewhere! When I heard her voice typing I jumped up and grabbed the phone away, knowing that child she'd be Periscoping. Thankfully she was only messaging me LOL
So I've been having a weird side effect since I got my boobs done. I don't know why, I guess because for so long I thought once I fixed my breasts I would be happy with my body. Not that I am unhappy with my body, but I have things about myself that drive me crazy and for so long I guess I held the belief that if I fixed the part that bothered me most, I would be happier with the rest.
The extra skin on my lower body. I think in clothes I look great, I feel great, but the moment I have to get undressed all I can see is that sagging, deflated skin. It's just been a lot worse mentally for me lately and the only reason I can come up with is that somewhere in my mind I thought the boobs would make me not notice it as much, but it's been the opposite, it bothers me MORE. I'm sure some of you will look at that and say 'eh it's not that bad' and you're probably right.
I just wish for all my handwork and dedication I could wear a pair of shorts and feel good. To not have some random girl point out my loose skin when I sit down - side eye. No amount of exercise and macros will tighten that skin back up unfortunately, but skin removal surgery is major and scary and a very long recovery.
I've just always carried my weight in my lower half, my poor hips have been 48 inches around at one point. Of course when I brought it up to my Mom she told me I was being obsessive and trying too hard to get the perfect body, then I got defensive and told her I'm 34 years old and I can do whatever I want with my body. hahaha - mother daughter relationships never change no matter how old you are! She also told me not to wear jeans with holes in them, major side eye.
There's no real point to me telling y'all this other than I'm hoping by sharing my current struggle it will have less power over me. See now I'm getting all emotional about it, sometimes I feel like I should be happy with what I have, what I worked for, but I can't help my feelings. Most of the time I can focus on the things I love about my body and how far I've come, I'm literally an entirely different person that I was 5 years ago. Maybe that's why clothing is so important to me, it makes me feel better about my body.