This is probably going to be a hot mess of a post because I'm a hot mess myself. I screwed up in a big way. I'm talking a total effing disaster that came in the mail last night via the IRS and a return from a few years ago that I missed something on. This was after dance class and a 30 minute 20 mph drive home where Madison freaked out the entire way because a lady bug was in the car. Aiden started to cry and Madison was acting like a nut, then I checked the mail, and bam. Bad freaking news. I try to call Oliver, but his phone was kaput. While trying not to flip a lid, I feed the kids and furiously clean whatever I can, cleaning is my go to destresser I just feel better while doing it. I start to cry because I know Oliver's going to be furious with me.
He comes in and asks why I'm crying, I tell him, and he completely shocks me by giving me a big hug, telling me not to worry and that we will fix it. He asks me if I've had dinner and I tell him through my tears that I only have macros for proteins and fats - eggs, sausage, and cheese it is. I swear I have the best husband ever, to not place one iota of blame on me and instead try to make me feel better - that's love. Now I just need to pray I can fix it and not be paying for this mistake for a very long time. I'm telling y'all - this has not been my best year :(
My weight has been stuck for the last few weeks, I hit prepreggo weight and it just sat there day after day. My macros were adjusted by Paige, increasing my carbs and lowering my fats and proteins a bit. Whenever my numbers change I tend to feel off for a few days as I try to figure out what to eat to fit my new numbers. Looking back through my food diary I haven't been hitting my numbers as consistently as I would like, off by 10 here and there, I tried to figure out where I was struggling. My number one problem right now is after work, with the sun staying up longer we are busier at night - soccer, dance, and our nightly runs. I haven't been eating dinner until 8 or 8:30 and then just eating what was easy. So my goal this week is to get my 7pm-9pm under control - even after my meltdown last night I managed to hit my numbers, but I had to bust out a protein shake to do it. Wasn't crazy impressed with this brand, I think I should've mixed it up with some ice and almond milk for a smoothie.
Drinking a protein shake before bed is not the best idea, I woke up to pee around 3:45 then I could feel my stomach rumbling from hunger, and then I remembered my IRS nightmare and couldn't go back to sleep. I just laid there until 4:15, got up and ate something before heading out on a run. My legs were like lead after leg day yesterday - I went extra heavy on the lunges so I felt my booty with every move I made today. The girls I ran with were fast - we kept an 8:29 pace for 5 miles {and hills, we always run those damn hills} and then I busted out some heavy upper body for 4/5 reps 3 sets. The entire time I was running I kept chanting to myself 'tired legs make you stronger' sometimes you just need to pep talk yourself.
Let's end on a happy note and imagine what the bald one will look like when he's not bald anymore.
This sweet girl hugs him 2,700 times a day, it's no wonder he hates everybody we never give him enough space to even look around :)